Entries for October, 2004

October 4th, 2004

conrado de quiros. bow

There's The Rub : And the winner is

Updated 00:05am (Mla time) Oct 04, 2004
By Conrado de Quiros
Inquirer News Service



Editor's Note: Published on page A14 of the October 4, 2004 issue of the Philippine Daily Inquirer.


THE TEXT joke I got was: You can't envy the American voter. If he votes Democrat, he'll be caught between two johns. If he votes Republican, he'll be caught between a dick and a bush.

Well, if the debate last Friday showed anything, the John is better than the Bush. That was the consensus of most American survey-makers. John Kerry did so much better than George W. Bush. Good for Kerry who had been trailing Bush for some time now. Bush's charge that Kerry is a flip-flopper who can't make up his mind on Iraq and therefore is not fit to lead had proven effective. Thanks in no small way to media outlets, such as the rabid right-wing network, Fox, drumbeating the line. But almost overnight, last Friday, Kerry turned it around. For the first time, he had Bush on the run-or shriveling in the vine, to use a more appropriate metaphor.

I caught portions of the debate last Friday and felt an acute sense of deja vu. I saw a similar debate a couple of years ago. I can only hope the results would be the same. That was the debate in Germany between the two candidates for prime minister, Gerhardt Schroeder and Edmund Stoiber. Before that debate, Schroeder, the incumbent, was trailing
Stoiber, the challenger, by a mile. Schroeder had promised to end Germany's high unemployment rate when he won the first time but failed to deliver; joblessness worsened during his term. Of course, he had scored points some months before the elections by beating Stoiber to the flood-stricken areas in the east, wading in knee-deep mud to give relief to residents. But it wasn't enough to overtake Stoiber's lead.

Then came the debate. Schroeder did one simple thing. That was to promise voters Germany would not join the United States if it declared war on Iraq. It struck a deep sympathetic chord among the voters, the majority of whom had grown up in a post-Hitler culture that hammered the virtue of peace in their minds. It also struck a deep antipathetic chord in Washington and Capitol Hill, many American officials calling it a betrayal of postwar US-German relations. It was at least one promise Schroeder would live up to. Overnight, he erased Stoiber's lead and beat him in the elections.

More accurately, he beat him to a draw: It was his coalition with the Greens that won the day for him. But that is another-more complicated-story.

It would be poetic justice if the American presidential election went the same way. I half suspect it will be equally close, no small thanks to Bush's predilection-like his little brown sister Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo's-for dagdag-bawas. Quite frankly, I don't know why Kerry has allowed himself to take on a defensive tack. He has no lack of things to accuse George W. Bush of to dispel the charge of being an obstacle to the war against terror. Bush's connections to the Bin Laden family, which Michael Moore highlighted in "Fahrenheit 9/11," easily come to mind. I don't know why it is Bush who has been on the attack, resorting to tirade and insult when he is the one most vulnerable to them.

Happily, Kerry has bounced back, and if he goes on to win the election next month, Bush will see this debate as the second biggest mistake he made in his life. The first, of course, was the Iraq War, which Kerry pounced on last Friday. The best part of it was when he answered Bush's charge of flip-flopping by saying in very even tones: "I've had one position, one consistent position, that Saddam Hussein was a threat. There was a right way to disarm him and a wrong way. And the president chose the wrong way."

I would tell friends last Friday night I thought that was Kerry's shining moment. As it turned out, most American viewers felt the same way. They gave Kerry the debate largely as a result of it.

Kerry was the clear winner in Friday's debate, and if he wins, I suspect the world will win, too. I did say when Mary Ann Wright visited here last month (she is the much decorated diplomat who resigned her post in disagreement over Bush's policies on Iraq; she is currently campaigning for Kerry) that I did not expect US policy to change dramatically under Kerry, Bill Clinton himself having continued the US policy of imposing an embargo on Iraq which led to the deaths of tens of thousands of Iraqi children. But any shift from Bush's 21st-century version of "manifest destiny," which is what his policy toward the world amounts to, should be a welcome one.

What suggests it would make the world a winner-indeed, what affirms Kerry's position that there is a right way and wrong way to deal with dictators-was the Arab reaction to the debate last Friday. The only ones who were not happy with Kerry's performance, worrying it might in fact carry him on to the White House, were the extremists and the heads of the autocratic regimes. The extremists want Bush to win because he is their biggest recruiter, in the same way that Marcos was the biggest recruiter for the New People's Army. And the heads of the autocratic regimes, like Saudi Arabia, want Bush to win because they do not like reformers who put pressure on them to recognize such democratic niceties as the citizens' rights.

True enough, there is a right way and a wrong way to deal with tyrants, who are to be found not just in Iraq. Bush's way isn't stopping tyranny, it is propping it up.

But you never know, life tends to be perverse. The truly strange thing is that Bush should be leading Kerry at all after a disastrous first term-one where he succeeded in pissing off just about everybody in the world, not least those who deeply sympathized with America after 9/11. But a friend of mine may have found the perfect explanation for it. The dumbest voters, he said, are not to be found in the Philippines.

They are to be found in America.

October 6th, 2004

woah!

nakalimutan kong may tabulas account pa pala ako. boohoo.. honestly, i didnt feel like writing these past few days (as with every other day since i got here- US). i have lots of ideas swelling from my mind but when i take time and try to organize and put into words these ideas, my mind just goes blank. i just sit in front of the pc staring at porn, este, monitor. hehe. to many things are going on around me i guess...

i want to change the format. instead of words... i wanna express myself in pictures... yeah, pictures... so watch out na lang mo. hehe.

oh yeah, about the debate..... i still think bush is a manipulative self-righteous warmongering cowboy.
Posted by lefthandedrebel at 11:11 PM | 7 kukumachichi

October 14th, 2004

angst...

ang kawalan ng pag-asa at ang maging malayo sa kanyang mga minamahal ay isang parusang kay bigat sa puso't pag-iisip pero tila mas mabigat ang pumili sa dalawang rosas kung sino ang pinakamamahal.

kalungkutan, matalik kong kaibigan. ang tangi kong kasama sa aking pagkakapiit. walang bisita kundi ang luhang sumasayaw sa aking mga pisngi.

tila kalayaan koy nagmamasid sa nakaraang buhay kong di na maabot kahit sa panaginip. nananabik na mabuhay uli kasama na aking pag-ibig.
Posted by lefthandedrebel at 08:33 AM | 2 kukumachichi

October 17th, 2004

...

a friend told me through email that ive been under this emo mode for so long... he added that i should go out, do things, heck shop... buy stuff..

if that's the case, id have to buy the world. but where would i get the money for that? patay!

in the meantime, im scavenging through ebay... scouring through ('scouring" meaning, buying stuff) garbage hoping that one day, i end up with one i actually use or fit me. hehe. good luck.

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oh yeah, went to a filipino party today. it reminded me of pinas and its sorry state aND then reminded me of us (displaced filipinos, displaced by economic reasons and other reasons) and how worse our state was. i spoke to one of the pinays. her name is helen, a tubong cebu, don pedro cui to be exact, (yup, duol sa Anak ng Bayan office). she works at a local air force base, what her job exaclty, i forgot. she told my sister and i, that here in the land of the free, flowing with milk and honey... we need to prove that we are all good in the head, beacuse americans tend to look down on us, she added.

i just felt sorry, at her state, their state, at MY state. why have i come to this point where i have to prove my mental capabilities to a bunch of pale faced people WHEN I HAVENT EVEN PROVEN MYSELF to my fellow filipinos.

why the need to prove myself, when I ran away from the very people and country i needed to prove myself to. at that instant, i felt useless, worth-less for having settled for something low, for being content with living, working for myself. heck look at me now... a ebayholic freak. playing patintero with sanity.

i longed for the day, when i could come back to my beloved pinas... para magsulat at makibaka!

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on the way home from the party, my tito and tita were talking about bush and the presidensy. as most of you know, my aunt and uncle are ultra-conservative and ultra-republicans. they swallow anything the republican shove into their mouths, always saying 'its better to choose the lesser of evils'. whats that all about?

so they were talking about bush in the car, and how my uncle had a dream last night that kerry won the US presidential elections. (i too have this inkling that kerry will win, not that im for bush- god NooOoh!, i know kerry has hidden agenda written all over him). My auntie remarked, that bush might as well step down coz its making him look old. then she insinuated that bush ran and won the presidensy out of genuine urge for service to the american people, she was almost saying "oh poor bushy, his hair got gray and his face wrinkled, he should rest now, after making all those hard decisions that affect the world". uggggh! i could almost puke. heller wake up! and smell the truth!

i love my uncle and aunt, they have been nothing but nice to me and all pero i just could not bare their naivety to things and their stubborness to accept any ideas at all, except their own. they see what they want to see, they believe what they want to believe.

i remember one time, my uncle asked me, why people around the world hate americans so much. i told him that it was mainly because of the shady foreign policies of the american government that exploits the world's masses and because of the availability of the alternative press. he just shrugged me off and said, "nahh, its becuase they are jealous of us". maybe in some cases thats true----- NOOOT!

i still believe bush is all about OIL and serving the elite population of america and perhaps the world. he is their john wayne, gunslinging and ridding the world of "native americans", "mexicans" and the so called "evils". the elite is the ever fragile damsel in distress. and the world, one big production.

well, this just gotta stop... and it would take more than just boykot"ing" the whole movie.

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last note, im going to nyc.... woohoo.... temporary vacation from monotony. pulahan! here i come!
Currently listening to: torete- moonstarr88
Currently reading: The Philippine- AMerican War
Currently feeling: agitated, as usual
Posted by lefthandedrebel at 02:15 AM | 8 kukumachichi

October 18th, 2004

sundance channel

my uncle was surfing through channels and stopped at channel 214, the sundance channel...

at ito ang naabutan namin...

"Music is the electronic soil in which the spirit... lives, thinks and... invents."

kickass!
Posted by lefthandedrebel at 01:57 PM | 2 kukumachichi

October 25th, 2004

UA 586

just got back from my burgis-burgisan trip to the big apple.

i got home and slept for 2 days... (well it felt like two days). i woke up and went online and guess what greeted me - mas lumala ang fiscal crisis ng pinas. hinampak ni atong presidente!

akala ko economista siya? akala ko alaga niya pamilyang pilipino?

akala ko!

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pinadevelop ko pa yung pics. again, thanks pulahan and give my regards to your momah and everybody else!
Posted by lefthandedrebel at 05:33 PM | 7 kukumachichi

October 27th, 2004

para kay andi... hehe

my plane landed at around 5:45, later than the planned arrival time due to the weather in new york, at the la guardia airport.
i went straight outside, as i was dying to see and breathe new york and of course, smoke. that was my first breathe of independence... a breathe of liberation in a long time.

after a few puffs, i phoned mah good friend pulahan, the bisaya turned nu yawka! hehehe. we got into an ineffective sort of communication, long story. he went in, i went out, he went out, i went in, he went to gate b, i was in gate c... you get the picture, after 15 or so minutes... he emerged from the sliding doors of the arrival area gate c.... mah good friend hasnt changed a bit, except for some pounds here and there (which is barely visible) and new swanky attire, with vest and all! kickass!

we smoked some more... and started talking.. how things have changed and how surreal everything was, from our tibakish days - (aspiring to be one with the proletariats) and now, burgisan ang show to the nth degree. (read karl marx's books, you'll know what i mean) hehe.

i think it was already around 7PM, pulahan led to the bus and took me to a fast phased tour of the big apple. in three hours or so.. we've circumnavigated NYC area, from queens, to manhattan's time square and grand central, then back to queens again. i felt like columbus, discovering a new world. never knew so much fun was to be had in riding the subway. yeehaw! sulit ang show. for like 21 bucks, you get to ride anywhere anytime in the subway or buses. of course, i made the most out of it. i think i spent more time in the trains and subway station than at one particular point in the city.

i lurve jackets, so the next day, we went through america's garbage, at the salvationa rmy store. i bought to a blue blazer, and a beige trench coat.... for more imperialista mode, for ony under 20 dollars, but wait heres more... sorry wala na pala. after that, we went straight to central park... wearing our newly bought wardrobe of course. for that, kumakati pa rin ng konti ang leeg ko waah!... kerry lang. we halfway through the park, nag-emo mode ako nang bigla... as if di kada minuto nag-eemo mode. wala, personal thoughts just sipped through my mind. thoughts? more like questions.... for that, nagswing kami ng todo, all the while, two pairs of lovebirds were palying kissy-face beside us. one pair was almost on top of one another. talk about being liberal! hehehe.

*pants* napagod ako ah. i havent written in a long time. sorry. yan na lang muna ngayon... part two bukas. meanwhile here are some pics.... narcissist muna mode ko.





Posted by lefthandedrebel at 12:10 AM | 3 kukumachichi

October 28th, 2004

angas nanaman...

bakit ba ang pagitan ng ulap at mga bituin kung masdan sa lupa'y tila kay lapit at matalik

pero sa paglipad mo'y, iyong matatanaw na ang layo'y tila bakal na rehas.

rehas sa pagitan ng ulap at bituin upang di na tuluyang magtagpo.

pasensya

mcbealism

sometimes when you hold out for everything, you end up with nothing.
Posted by lefthandedrebel at 07:15 AM | 4 kukumachichi

October 29th, 2004

umuulan pa rin sa oklahoma

while waiting for my american government class to start. out of the gloomy cloudy oklahoman sky, golden rays sipped through the bald spot of the heavens. it cut into the roof's galss panel and into a man sitting lonely in the crowded lobby. it was like a scene taken out of a play. just wonderin when the curtain call would be.

professor nazeemi enetered the well lit room in his usual oversize long sleeve shirt, his silver hair and a smile on his face. " i just love rainy days" he exclaimed. he was cute, like a schoolboy on his first day to school.

at the back of the room, a guy asked the professor, if he could help out with his confusion. he was still an undecided voter. being a war veteran, he told us, he didnt want to put bush in power for four more years.

i gotta admire my professor, in his mid-40's and of middle eastern descent (as if it matters), impassioned by his duty to inform the americans the truth, the truth that the whole world from the outside sees america. he explained with much fervor about war, islam, persian gulf, america and its elite and powerful. if the cia, or bush heard him speak today, he'd be considered a leftist and probably detained for an indefinite period of time, thanks to the patriotic act. but it sure was comforting to know that in this lonely place, im not alone, in terms of my views... and i hope in terms of my principles too.

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one hot topic on people's minds (in that room), was the upcoming elections. bush or kerry, more evil or less... (not necessarily respectively). a man in his 40's casually asked me who'd i vote for, as if a spontaneous reflex, i answered kerry with a smile on my face. no idea why i said that, i cant even vote. i am not a citizen for one thing. i figured since i started it, i might as well go along with it. yeah, pretend to be an american registered voter.

uncertain why i'd vote for kerry, but sure why i wouldnt want to waste my time for bush. it should be clear by now, lil bushy's creepy similarity with the senior. for one thing... they seem to be salivating at the persian gulf more obvious than most of the american president, because most american presidents do. started with Franklin D. Roosevelt when he went into an agreement with the saudi king, 'keep oil flowing into my country, and ill protect you all the way'. years later, US established bases in Saudi Arabia, Kuwait, of course afghanistan, Iraq.... pretty much in control of the whole region, except for Iran? the all dreaded axis of evil.

then there is the patriotic act, which im doing a paper on... which ridiculously twists and bends the american civil rights and liberties into unidentifiable pieces, And labeling everyone else terrorists, subject to arrests, torture and doom!!! im just appalled to know that only a handful of american know about this. weird?

reasons not to vote for bush goes on and on...

but how about our good ol friend kerry... he has nothing substantial to show the american people, except promises (uncertain if they will be kept) and a drama - his vietnam record. its difficult to put your trust in a guy who you know nothing of... but if he is the only way to remove a half witted cowboy from the only empire in the world, id find solace and comfort in that-- for a while of course.

our class eneded at our 1248PM. the sun's rays crept back behind the clouds... and the pitter patter song started to play on walls, sidewalks and parking lots. and people's faces where filled with one big question... who am i going to vote for?

how about nader? hehe.
Posted by lefthandedrebel at 02:34 AM | 9 kukumachichi