...humaharurot na ang jeep ni juan!

my assumption that the land of oppurtunity is crawling with opportunist pinay bitches had just been justified again. exploiting the masses with work not fit even for a water buffalo.

bitches that twitch each time somebody waves green paper at their faces.

bitches that bitch more when they are cornered.

bitches that claims God is on their side, and always agreeing with all their decisions.

how can one claim to care for someone else, then uses them, suck them dry, unless they are bitches.

a person once told me that i wasnt serious about anything. and he was right. for god's sake i cant even walk away...

i desperately have to, i have nothing to prove anyway and i doubt if anybody would miss me.

my desire to walk away just flew right out of the window.

it turned out i didnt have to. they forced me to. funny but not the "haha" kind. the people who i so faithfully loved and adored, the people that took me in, in my time of nothingness, buttered me up... and stuck in the oven to cook with the turkey. its painful. i never considered myself a freeloader, but apparently they did.

im back living with my mom and sister. i thought i was mad at them, but realized i am only mad at myself. 23 is an overripe age to be independent. the way things are going, i would be rotting in a week. with nothing, not even seed to propagate my miserable kind.

as for the whole turkey dinner, its already 6 in the evening... my family is at a friend's house while i am enjoying a cold cut ensemble of stale bread, mustard, pimiento, mayonnaise, spinach and a million slices of oscar meyer turkey. its not really my family's fault, i chose not to go, i couldnt let my miserable disease infect the cheery mood of people filled with cranberry glazed thankfulnessification.

at least empire records is playing right now... and to top it off, later, im going to light a cigarette on the porch and smoke away.

so happy thanksgiving everyone.

thought of posting a poem, but went shopping instead... bought a hoodie and a kickass thundercat belt and buckle. haha